These days I haven't been myself. I haven't been writing, or dancing, or singing, or doing the stuff I usually enjoy and love. Instead I've buried myself in animes and Korean dramas and stayed home all day doing almost nothing and basically wasting my life and my youth. In other words, I feel like I've lost myself. Since I'm not doing the things that make me who I am, I feel useless and meaningless. I feel like a BLOB.
To add to that, it's already THAT time of year. Ze Holidays. The REAL holidays, the season itself, and not just some random holiday day (not sure if that's redundant or not). I'm supposed to feel festive and upbeat and ALIVE because Christmas is just around the corner...and yet I waste myself away eating Oreos and bacon -- feeling empty.
But tonight, Santa came early and gave me the best present I could ever ask for.
LORD, I'd originally asked for Doc Martin boots and/or the Just Dance 3 game for PS3 but this is more than enough. I can't explain how this made my day, my night, my whole Holiday season. I would exchange anything for this. Even my shoes. And I'm not even in this picture!
As I thought, these people have helped me become who I am; the moment I was away from them, I just lost it. Seeing this, I regained my purpose, and that is to see them again. To spend time with them again. To share laughter and tears and drink to our hearts' content. I love them, and the whole Cru Crew, including those who aren't here because of this. Because of despite the distance, they gave me this.
Most importantly, I remember, too, what the holidays is all about. Love. Friendship. The people you cherish the most.
So don't forget, like how I did.
Merry Christmas! <3
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